Chantal Kruk

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IMPACT'N Communities Placement Student

Tell me a bit about yourself

I was born in Scarborough, but spent many years living in Quebec City.  I went to full French elementary and high school in Toronto and in Quebec as well.  My favourite subjects in school were art and when I was really young it was gym class. I am 26. I go to Centennial College. I am in the Social Service Work Program. I’m graduating in April. I’m living at home with my boyfriend. I have a dog and a cat.

My Business:  IMPACT’N Communities, Placement Student

I help out with anything they need help with at P2P, the Violence Intervention program, and the Drop In centres.  I help with food preparation, cleaning and facilitating activities. They have workshops, but I’m still a bit too shy.

I hate being in front of people and talking. It’s horrible I just want to die.  It’s the whole standing up part that makes it worse.  IMPACT’N Communities is helping me. I’m assigned to go in front of other interns and make presentations.  It is terrifying, but I’m getting better. I’m alive, I made it.  Soul R and Dion at IMPACT are really helping me get better at dealing with my anxiety issues.

What keeps you up at night?

If I have to do a presentation at IMPACT, then thinking of what I need to present.  That’s just scary.

Overall, stress, just thinking about everything I need to do. All the cleaning in the house that never gets done i.e., laundry.  And of course relationship problems.  Thinking about my mom, she’s going through a hard time now.

What was best piece of advice you ever received?

Actually, just last week, by Soul R — I guess he saw me alone in the corner, not talking to anyone, when I was probably sinking into that dark mental space, and he noticed it.  He came up to me and told me to stop over-thinking, to get out of my head. “You’re not a celebrity, and not everyone’s watching you” he said.

What was the worst piece of advice you ever received?

When I’m depressed or sad about something, many people will say, “Lots of people have it way worse than you. Children are starving all over the world, so get over it.”  Hearing that doesn’t help.  It doesn’t acknowledge the stuff I’m going through at that moment.